We are nearing the end of our trip and all I can say is “wow.” I am utterly amazed at the bigness of God. When we woke up the first morning and saw that we were surrounded by beautiful rolling green hills decked with low clouds, I knew this was going to be an epic week.
This week I’ve been a hand-holder, dish-washer, encourager, friend, jungle gym, hair model, secret keeper, confidante, spiritual leader, sister/mother, prayer warrior, hiker, and so much more.
I have never been good at sharing my experiences, especially my missions trips. Let’s be honest, my family is still waiting to see my photos from Cambodia and that was almost 4 years ago.
But, I will do my best. I don’t have a specific story or person to highlight, but I do want to share how my life and the teams has changed.
With tears in my eyes, I can share that walls were broken and lives were mended. Words of God were confirmed and new revelations were born.
I have personally learned so much. This is my first trip as a leader and I came in so scared and nervous. I kept listing off dis-qualifications of why I wasn’t the best candidate for the job. Why would I be chosen for such an important task. But, this week has changed everything.
I don’t know why we believe the lies of the enemy, but we do. Why don't we see ourselves like our King and Savior see us? Why are we so blinded by the thoughts of others? I wonder all the things we are missing out on.
This has been one of the shortest, but most fulfilling trips I’ve been on. I came to lead and serve, I didn’t think I would learn and change so much. All I can think of is how great our God is and how much He loves us all. He loves everyone. He doesn’t pick and choose.
I want to tell you I made a lot of close connections with our fellow brothers and sisters in Haiti, but that would not be the truth. The closest connections I have made have been with our team. Being placed in a small contained space 24/7 you learn a lot about someone. Our team has connected on a deeper level, and I pray that doesn’t leave as we each go our own ways tomorrow.
I don’t want this trip to end because I fear for what is waiting for me back home. Complacency, procrastination, loneliness - none of these things I have felt in Haiti. It’s weird, we’ve been outside of our comfort zones, but I feel more comfortable here. The simplicity of everything is refreshing.
This week I didn’t receive any new revelations, I didn’t see or hear God in a new way, but, I did hear Him. He was quite repetitive and loud.
One of my goals on this trip was to focus on the present. Too many times I think about the next thing. As I have been focusing on here and now, the Lord has been speaking to me quite a lot about the future. This is one of the first times I didn’t want to think about the future, but it kept popping up. This trip has caused me to slow down and live in the moment. But, the Lord, has clearly been speaking to me about what is next. I just needed some time away from my life to see the path He has chosen for me.
I didn’t just get reminded of the plans He has for me (and that it’s not too late). But, I also got to see Haiti’s future. Represented by every little one in the orphanage we’ve been serving. They are the future, and they need our help! Through prayer, missions trips, and tangible needs.
I am blessed to be born in America. I am blessed to visit this beautiful country. But, most of all I am blessed to serve a God who loves us all, equally! May Haiti feel that love and may you feel this love.
I want to leave you with the truth that Jesus loves you. No matter where you have come from or done, or will do. Romans 8:38 let’s us know that nothing can separate us from the love of God.
Whatever you’re going through, He loves you. Through the heartache, pain, and disappointment, He loves you.
He loves you so much, my friends. Be encouraged and strong in faith.