Saying Hello to Haiti...
The moment that I said goodbye to everything, everyone and my family in Arizona, I said hello to Haiti. I said hello to a new adventure with my Heavenly Father and a honest desire to know God even more. I said hello to trusting God with everything out of my comfort zone and trusting Him going into the frontier. Before leaving, discouragement and fear ran through my mind debating if I was even worthy enough. I had fear over the unknown, but saying hello to Haiti, I have realized that it is the unknown where my faith is the most evident. It’s the unknown where I hear the whispers of “I am right by your side. I haven’t left, never will and My grace is for you too.” I am beyond thankful that when I am struggling in stress, anxiety, discouragement and fear… I can remind myself that I serve a God that is above all, sees all, knows all… and He is for me. I can walk into the unknown knowing that He is going to guide my steps and have that genuine childlike faith for our Almighty Deliverer.
My team and I were sitting on the plane in Fort Lauderdale on our way to Haiti and that was the moment that I had realized I was leaving. Sitting in my plane seat, I was overcome with an honest moment of pure fear, but also a dependent trust in my enthralling Fortress, for which I am secure beneath. So many different emotions and thoughts ran through my mind and I couldn’t help but let out everything that was built up.This is exactly where God wants me to be and knowing that I was leaving to experience His glorious presence in a whole different and unique setting made me abundantly cheerful. I was leaving to make connections and build deeper relationships with the people that I will come in contact with.
Coming off the plane in Haiti has so far been the most nerve wracking experience I have ever faced. The biggest culture shock for me was walking through Haiti’s airport and I still have no words to describe what I felt. After getting on our bus, my team and I had an hour long ride into the mountains right outside Port-au-Prince. Seeing the brokenness and the hurt right outside my bus window, I thought about America and how both cultures are both beautiful and broken in some way. Our countries are beautifully afflicted and my prayer is that we recognize the beautiful within all the brokenness. That is how Jesus sees us when we are afflicted in sin and defeat… He calls us whole, makes us clean again and loves us despite everything we may do to cover our mistakes up.
Saying Hello to Haiti has been the best yes. I believe that God has wholeheartedly given every single person on this team a purpose for the here and now as well as a vision for the future. My prayer and pursuit every day is that I experience God’s presence in all that I do. I am beyond excited for what He has in store for the rest of the week.