A letter to Jesus on the cross

Photograph by Heather Christy

Photograph by Heather Christy

“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”

Luke 22:42, NIV

Jesus, I know the pain I suffer in this life is nothing compared to the cross… But I am in so much pain. Sometimes, in the deepest of pains, it feels like I will hurt forever—like I will never stop bleeding. I wonder if these desperate emotions were part of what you felt on that cross…like the bleeding would never stop, like the open wounds would forever sting. Wounds so deep that they change everything about you.

You willingly gave yourself in to so much pain, persecution, and mistreatment. You knew it would happen in these events, and yet, you still chose to participate in God’s will for your life. You picked up your cross. You submitted to heaven’s will. I would even dare to say that you approached your death squarely in the face! (John 18:1-8)

And maybe this is an example of what I need to be amidst life’s pain… Submissive. Surrendered. Trusting. Willing. It isn’t necessarily about the fact that you were willing to walk into your death sentence, but more so in the way that you looked to God above all circumstance. You approached the situations God asked you to approach because you trusted his intention above your own intuition (Luke 22:41-44). This is an example of what we need to be as a church body. Open to God’s will and way. As God’s creation, we submit to the ebb and flow of life’s pains.

The difference is that I did not choose this pain. And yet, you chose yours.

I did not know the pain that was to come in my life. But now it’s here, and I am very aware that there will be more hurt to come.

Although I did not choose my pains, God did. God chose this, he planned it, and there is no accident in this life’s journey.

This IS the plan. This is THE PLAN.

God chose your pain on the cross just as he chose my pain in this season. God has a greater purpose for every single pain, so long as we submit to his will.

And Jesus, you may have thought you would never stop bleeding out, but God healed you and redeemed your wounds. More than that, he saved humanity through you, through those bleeding wounds. Although your body was broken, our Father made humanity whole. And if God can take the greatest pain this earth has ever known and make something so good of it, he can surely make beautiful my light and momentary troubles. 

My wounds do not compare to yours, but they are wounds just the same. Wounds that God the Father will heal and close up. Wounds that draw me nearer to rely on him.

“Jesus called out with a loud voice, ‘Father, into your hands I commit my spirit.’ When he had said this, he breathed his last” (Luke 23:46, NIV).

May I handle my pain the way you handled yours on the cross: in submission, holding nothing back from God our Father. May I honor God in my suffering the way you did in yours, declaring him LORD above all.

LORD, into your hands I commit my spirit. May I trust your intention above my own intuition. May I submit to heavens will, knowing very well that every pain is made complete in your Kingdom.

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Devotional written by Heather Christy. Graphic designed by Daniel Christy.