We Can't Escape Him...
“Lord, you know everything there is to know about me. You perceive every movement of my heart and soul, and you understand my every thought before it even enters my mind. You are so intimately aware of me, Lord. You read my heart like an open book and you know all the words I’m about to speak before I even start a sentence! You know every step I will take before my journey even begins.
You’ve gone into my future to prepare the way, and in kindness you follow behind me to spare me from the harm of my past. With your hand of love upon my life, you impart a blessing to me. This is just too wonderful, deep, and incomprehensible! Your understanding of me brings me wonder and strength. Where could I go from your Spirit? Where could I run and hide from your face? If I go up to heaven, you’re there! If I go down to the realm of the dead, you’re there too! If I fly with wings into the shining dawn, you’re there! If I fly into the radiant sunset, you’re there waiting! Wherever I go, your hand will guide me; your strength will empower me. It’s impossible to disappear from you or to ask the darkness to hide me, for your presence is everywhere, bringing light into my night. There is no such thing as darkness with you. The night, to you, is as bright as the day; there’s no difference between the two. You formed my innermost being, shaping my delicate inside and my intricate outside, and wove them all together in my mother’s womb. I thank you, God, for making me so mysteriously complex! Everything you do is marvelously breathtaking. It simply amazes me to think about it! How thoroughly you know me, Lord! You even formed every bone in my body when you created me in the secret place, carefully, skillfully shaping me from nothing to something. You saw who you created me to be before I became me! Before I’d ever seen the light of day, the number of days you planned for me were already recorded in your book. Every single moment you are thinking of me! How precious and wonderful to consider that you cherish me constantly in your every thought! O God, your desires toward me are more than the grains of sand on every shore! When I awake each morning, you’re still with me.
O God, come and slay these bloodthirsty, murderous men! For I cry out, “Depart from me, you wicked ones!” See how they blaspheme your sacred name and lift up themselves against you, but all in vain! Lord, can’t you see how I despise those who despise you? For I grieve when I see them rise up against you. I have nothing but complete hatred and disgust for them. Your enemies shall be my enemies! God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart. Examine me through and through; find out everything that may be hidden within me. Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares. See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on, and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting ways— the path that brings me back to you.” Psalms 139:1-24 TPT
Sin can be an eternal entrapment. It leads us down a dark road, beckoning to us. With sly words it whispers how your life will be better. “Just one taste,” it says, “and you’ll have eternal pleasure.” As darkness overtakes us we begin to feel the trap that was just set. It’s like being trapped in your own body. As you are lured further in, you look out from lost eyes and see what you once were.
Even through this, God’s love is there. We cower and hide thinking that He will never know the plague that has hit us; but really God sees it all. He sees you lost and hurting, wondering why you don’t come to Him. But, once again, sins lies tell us that God is harsh and judgmental. He really can’t see what you are doing, but the reality is, God knows every intricate detail that makes you uniquely you.
As you sift through the web of your heart, what holds you back from an intimate relationship with God? Is it feeling naked and afraid; caught in entrapment just like Adam and Eve felt? Is it feeling like you are too far gone? Is it thinking that once you accept Jesus, you’ll have a bunch of rules to follow?
None of the above is true. Psalm 139 lays it out perfectly for us. It shows who our God really is and His true intentions for us. He is not a vicious all-mighty being who wants to see your destruction; instead He is a loving creator who desires holiness and intimacy with you. Once sin tastes holiness it has to flee! It can longer hide inside you and you can no longer hide from God. It will propel you to break down the barrier that stops you from relationship with God.
As you read the Psalm this week, take in account how God knows your every breath, every step, and every word. It is not meant to scare you, but entice you into a deeper relationship with Him. Search the darkest parts of your soul and heart and let God’s light and holiness clean out the junk the weighs you down.
God loves you, and every little quirk and smile that makes you who you are. Let Him show you this week what true friendship can look like.
Pastor Mark and the Devotional Team!